Well, after almost a year, I'm back to blogging on my own blog. I've been working over at Oh!Dinner (www.ohdinner.com) for the past year and I'm still doing that but I really missed having a place to verbally go crazy. This is my place!
I gotta say... a lot has happened in the last year. We sold our house, renovated another house, moved into it, started a website, hubby started a new company, and a bazillion other things. And my son is 2 years old and embracing it. This means I'm getting my BUTT KICKED out of the ball park. It's totally fun to watch him explore and see his personality become even bigger but it's also exhausting, wondering what the heck I'm supposed to do to help guide him through this phase with freedom, not control. I can only control myself. Thanks Danny Silk for that little piece of wisdom.
Son just went down for his rest time and I'm about ready to topple over on the couch and have a snooze myself. But, here I sit, blogging instead. All the things I used to do while he was awake, I now need to do while he's contained in a crib, sleeping away the afternoon. If I'm on the computer, he wants to be on it too. If I'm on the toilet, he wants to see what's going on in the pot. Seriously. So, there's not much time for all the other stuff, like getting everything done in the day that needs to be done. And in all honesty, a lot of things just don't get finished these days. It's a constant life of undone things. The thought that everyone who's ever had kids experienced this (unless they're popping some speed pills) lived with the undone-ness, gives me hope that I can do this too and make it out the other side with my sanity intact.
If I can enjoy toddler-hood, it means less laundry folded and more snuggles with my son on the couch. Less kitchen perfection, more story times with him. Less me being put together, more spending time showing my son how to experience the world around him. I think in the long run, I'll be glad I embraced this chaotic time instead of trying to have it all together. I only get to be a Mommy once and I want to spend these young years actually being a Mommy, not trying to have a perfect life.
Cheers to getting my butt kicked!
2 comments:
Here I am cheering you through the trenches. We have all been there and felt exactly like you are feeling. I made it I think maybe with a little less sanity but its all the same.
Nodody said you'd come out of it with your sanity 'intact', did they?...what fun would that be anyway?! pwah! Love it. I love loving mommyhood with you :o)
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